Let the Trying Begin

After nearly 10 years on birth control my husband and I were ready to start our family... and that's when I stop getting my period, natch.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

It's True - I Am A Truant Blogger

So, I've been keeping up with everyone else's news, but there hasn't been much to report. Well, maybe that's not true -- I've been a bit of a disaster for the past couple of weeks. Evidence:
  • migraine during the bike ride (yes, the MRI was consistant with a migraine)
  • serious bruising of my left foot from trying to catch the elevator door with my sandal-clad foot (yes, i'm super smart)
  • full on ankle sprain on same ankle after having a few glasses of wine with dinner (the sort of ankle sprain where you realize every other time you thought you sprained your ankle before you were just being a major wimp, b/c it never turned nauseautingly green or swelled up to be nearly as large as your calf)

So hopefully I will be less gimp-like soon and be able to walk around without limping.

On the good news (at least for other folks) front -- another friend is pregnant. She's due in early June. What's with the telling everyone at 5 weeks? I thought people waited longer. I know I'm planning to wait longer. Well, that's what I say now, but we'll see.

Also (possibly) good -- looks like cycle 2 is progressing along -- possibly with ovulation in the next couple days. I've been using the CBE OPK, but I'm never sure if it will work -- I had a couple of ambiguous results last month, but O (& the resulting AF) appear consistant on my chart. I thought maybe this cycle would be a lot shorter, since I've been on the Metformin throughout, but so far, it doesn't appear to be.

Wow, I guess I had more to say than I thought I did.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Keeping Optimism at Bay

I don't like to fail at anything. Of course, no one does, but for me, it sometimes keeps me from doing and trying things for fear of failure. I've been so fortunate in my life that so many things have been so easy for me, but I only like to try at things when I know I can succeed. Which is why I have 85% of a book proposal put together, but have yet to make any more progress on it nearly 9 months later. Go figure.

Good friends of ours shared news of their pregnancy last night over dinner. They're 7 weeks along. I'm very excited for them -- I knew they were trying, and she's familiar with what we're going through at this point. Part of me optimistically hopes that we'll both be pregnant together (though she's going to be delivering in early May, and if we're successful this cycle we won't be due until mid-late June), but another part of me doesn't like even the fact that I've now typed that "outloud", for fear that it won't happen.

Metformin Question: when the doc told me to take Metformin, she said to stop taking it if I was getting an HSG, because the dye is processed through your liver, much as Metformin is -- I'm having an MRI with contrast (unrelated to fertility) on Monday -- any ideas if I'm supposed to stop before the MRI, or after and for how long? (Yes, I'll ask my doctor too.)

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

AF Arrives: Cycle 2 Begins

Ok, it may be sad, but I have never *ever* been as excited about the arrival of AF before in my life -- well, maybe when I was 18 and had taken a (thankfully negative) HPT in the bathroom of a Chilis Restaurant. My last cycle was a whopping 37 days -- I'll be curious to see if that changes this cycle, since I'll be on the Metformin full-dosage for the whole time.

It's weird too, because this is my first *real* AF of 2006 -- I forgot about all the achy muscles and other unpleasantness, but now that I'm hopeful that the Metformin has gotten me ovulating, I don't mind so much.

We were OOT last weekend for a babyshower, and the inquisitions about when we're planning to start our family have been ever increasing. It may see overly optimistic, but I hope I'll have good news to share by Christmas. Fingers crossed.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Charting Clues

Not a whole lot of excitement to report at this point, but I've been trying out a couple of different charting programs to decide if I want to invest in one or not. Being the nerd that I am, I like being able to type in the data on my computer and see the graphs and get the feedback that some of the software offers. I tryed the TCOYF free trial and I'm currently using the free VIP trial of Fertility Friend. I prefer Fertility Friend, though I'm not sure exactly why... perhaps it's because it says I ovulated? And that you can share your Fertility Friend chart. I've still got quite a bit of time on the trial at FF, so we'll see how that goes before I make any committments.

According to FF, I'm on 9dpo. While I'd be thrilled if I was pregnant this cycle, I'd actually be nearly as happy if AF came -- it would be my first non-Provera period in 2006, and it would make me feel like the Metformin was doing its job. Perhaps it's too early to hope for that to happen (I haven't even been on the full dose of Metformin for this whole cycle), but we'll see.

We're heading out of town to go to a babyshower this weekend... Because our friend was on bedrest for the last 10 weeks of her pregnancy, they decided to wait to have the shower until after the baby's arrival, and I'm excited to meet their new family member.

Friday, August 25, 2006

Peeing On Sticks

So, I've been peeing on OP sticks every morning since CD10 (today is CD20) and nothing has shown up as positive. I was using Clearblue Easy ones, and then I switched to Answer. The Answer ones are about 1/2 price, but they are a bit of a pain, since they require you to pee in a cup, then dip the stick to take a reading. I think I'll revert to the midstream ones once I finish up this package.

It's a bit premature to think that the Metformin has worked, since I've only been on the full dosage for not quite 2 weeks, but the Clearblue test lines were looking almost as dark as the control lines. We've been trying to do the baby dance every other day, and have been pretty good about it -- though it does feel odd to be on a bit of a "schedule."

One funny thing that happened was that DH saw one of the tests on the counter and was convinced it was positive, even though I had read it and thought it was negative. He showed it to me, and I also thought it was positive --I was pretty excited, though cynical about it. After the initial elation wore off, I looked at it again, and realized we had been reading the side that said Ovulation, which is actually the "control" line not the "test" line. Such a smart pair we are.

Not much else to report, but I feel like i've been neglecting my blog, so I'll try to do better.

Monday, August 14, 2006

An Update...

So, it's been a while since I've posted... sorry... I've been busy!

I've been slowly building up my dosage of Metformin. I'm now taking 2 pills (1000 mg) a day, and will build up to the full dose of 1500 mg starting on Wednesday. I'm feeling pretty fortunate, as I haven't had any of the gastrointestinal issues that other folks have complained about. I've been trying to tone down my carb consumption a bit, and haven't been drinking much (alcohol), so perhaps that's helping, but overall, I don't think I can complain. I was hoping for some of the weight-loss that folks had reported with Metformin, but so far, nothing notable.

Still, with all the tough stuff I've seen other infertiles going through, and with the possibilities that might lie ahead of me, I'm trying not to whine much about depriving myself of alcohol.

I must say though, I do feel like a total pill-popper... first thing in the morning, I take my temperature for my efforts at charting, then I get up and take my prenatal vitamin and some folic acid/vitamin b combo that my RE prescribed along with a cracker to keep the nauseau at bay. Generally I can make it the hour until it's time to have breakfast/take my first dosage of Metformin without feeling too dizzy. I don't have to take another Metformin until dinnertime right now, but it does seem constantly on my mind to remember. When I suggested I might want one of those pill cases, DH laughed and said I'm not old enough to need a pill organizer. Little does he know how short my memory is -- on Friday, I had to pour out the entire bottle of Metformin to calculate whether I had taken a pill 30 minutes earlier or not.

Some good news: a friend of mine who is using the same clinic I am is about 4 weeks pregnant with twins! It was her third IVF cycle, but her first cycle at Columbia, and she and her husband are positively thrilled. I'm so happy for them. The optimistic me thinks that if the clinic can make it work for someone who is 38 and then they can probably help me.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Call me, call me any, anytime

I'm proactive. OK, perhaps I'm just antsy. But when the RE told me to call "at the end of this week, early next week" of course I'm going to call on Friday.

Friday afternoon: Me: "I had some testing done Monday for Nurse: "Sorry, the results aren't in yet. When we have to send the labwork out to Quest (this has to do with Aetna), it can take 7-10 days for the results to come back."

Monday 2:30 ish:
Nurse: "Yes, the results are in, everything looks normal."
Me: "Does that mean I should start taking the Metformin?"
Nurse: "I need to check with the Dr. about that. She's not in today."
Me: "My bottle of Metformin says to take 1 a day for a week, then 2 a day for a week, then 4 a day. Is this right? I thought it was supposed to be working up to a total of 3 (1500 mg). "
Nurse: "That's odd, normally it's 3 -- you have 500 mg pills? I will check on that when I talk to the RE."
Me: "So, you'll call me tomorrow?"
Nurse: "Yes"

Tuesday 4:01 p.m.:
Me: "I talked to a nurse yesterday about my bloodwork, and she was supposed to talk to the doctor and get back to me today."
Receptionist: "I'm sorry, the nurses leave at 4 p.m. I can check to see if anyone is available. momentary hold Sorry, they're all gone for the day. I can take a message and leave it in the nurses basket, then you can call tomorrow anytime after 10 a.m.

Wednesday 10:01 a.m.
Me: "I'm calling about my Metformin bloodwork. The nurse told me monday my results were in and that she would talk to the doctor about instructions and double check my dosage and call me back, but she didn't, so I'm following up.
Nurse: "Well, the results just came in. They weren't here on Monday, and the doctor hasn't had a chance to review them."
Me: "Will you call me back after you find out how I should proceed?"
Nurse: "What number should we call?"
Me: 212-555-5555. Can you please leave a message if I'm not here?"
Nurse: "You want us to leave a message with the instructions?"
Me: "No, just leave me a message with some fashion tips."

Thursday night, perhaps early Friday morning:
Nurse (on answering machine): "We wanted to let you know that the results of your bloodwork were all normal and you should begin taking the Metformin. Take 500 mg for a week, then 1000 mg for another week and then 1500 mg during week 3.

After a very late night snack, I popped my last Provera and my first Metformin. We'll see what happens now.

Is it weird that I'm mildly excited about trying to chart and using the OPK? I think it is, but I'm alright with that.